Trusting Him

If my ailments and struggles have made me more reliant on God and kept me close to Him, then I thank and praise Him- in that He in His infinite loving wisdom allowed what only He could know would draw me ever closer to Him. I have met many people over the course of my life who spend all their life, their time, money and energy, seeking to “fix” their bodies and to control every aspect of what may disrupt their very delicate sense of balance. I have read books on these types of methods of dealing with the aftermath of childhood trauma and the never-ending list of how to manage day-to-day life as a damaged person, or as one person said “a shattered soul.” What if the goal we are working so hard to achieve is actually independence from God Himself? What if all our stiving is actually a refusal to be humble and rely solely on Him? We will do anything but simply trust Him. What glory does God get if I “fixed myself?” Who is “healer” if I achieve healing by my own works? Those who reach such healing never seem restful or truly “healed” to me, but always working so hard to “maintain” said healing. When God does the work, He receives all the glory, and I enter in with simple thankfulness and restful dependence on Him to keep me. Do we in our practical everyday lives trust that He knows best? Do we trust that He is perfect and loving in all He has sovereignly allowed in our lives? Yes, we pray to know His will and ask His healing, but do we trust Him in whatever His answer may be? If His answer is “my grace is sufficient” … and “My power is made perfect in weakness” as He told Paul will we trust Him? What if by God’s sovereign will we suffer the rejection and abuse of men? Jesus did just that, wholly trusting His all loving, all wise heavenly father. This is the kind of trust that we as children of God can have, for He is our heavenly Father just as He was and is to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. He is my “Abba,” my loving “daddy” perfect and pure and holy. He is to be trusted with every fiber of my being as Jesus showed through His life unto death on a cross. Jesus rejected the wisdom of man and entrusted himself entirely to the Father, accepting all things, including suffering, in humble dependence on the Father… will we trust Him whose ways are not our ways, He who is perfect in all His ways?!